FIRST PRESBYTERIAN CHURCH, ATLANTA, GEORGIA

Sermon by Dr. George Bryant Wirth

 

September 23, 2007

 

CHRIST AT THE CENTER:

THE FAITH OF MOTHER TERESA

 

Scripture:  Psalm 22:1-5, Matthew 11:1-6, James 1:1-8

 

INTRODUCTION

 

When Mother Teresa visited Atlanta in the summer of 1995, I was invited by Father Steve, the priest at Sacred Heart Church, to come downtown to meet her there.  Unfortunately, I was away on vacation up at Chautauqua Lake, but I did ask my Catholic friend and brother in the faith if there might be a way for me to have a picture of her.  When I returned home from New York State, this framed photograph had been delivered to the office, and I have treasured it over the 12 years since then.

 

You see, like many of you, I have always looked up to her – Mother Teresa of Calcutta – as one of my heroines of the faith.  She was a religious leader who, like Martin Luther King Jr., Billy Graham and Desmond Tutu, have touched the lives of millions of people with their inspiring words, empowering vision, Christ-centered lives and courageous commitment to put their faith into action.

 

So, again like many of you, I was surprised and somewhat shaken when I read the cover story in Time Magazine three weeks ago, entitled: “The Secret Life of Mother Teresa: Newly Published Letters Reveal a Beloved Icon’s 50-Year Crisis of Faith.” (Time Magazine, September 3, 2007)

 

This was not a story about yet another high profile Christian caught up in a sexual scandal or found out for embezzling funds – no, this was far more serious.  This was and is a story about a well-known and highly respected spiritual woman who supposedly lost her faith but kept it secret.

 

And that is why I decided to change the sermon title for today.  Instead of preaching about “The Tower of Babel” (which wasn’t coming along all that well anyway), this sermon is about “The Faith of Mother Teresa.”  Once again, as we have acknowledged from this pulpit before, “Life is what happens when you’ve made other plans.”

 

I

 

The recently published book that has brought all of this out into the open, “Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light,” was compiled and edited by Fr. Brian Kolodiejchuk, who knew Mother Teresa for twenty years as her friend and spiritual counselor, and who is now the priest in charge of the process of her becoming a saint in the Catholic Church.

 

As you might have guessed, many people are upset that Mother Teresa’s personal and private letters, which she requested never to be made public, have now been exposed to a world-wide audience.  But Fr. Kolodiejchuk, in his preface to this book, offers an explanation:

 

          “Mother Teresa could not hide her work among the poor, but what she did manage to keep hidden…were the most profound aspects of her relationship with God.  She was determined to keep these secrets…far from mortal eyes…

          (But) providentially, Mother Teresa’s spiritual directors preserved some of her correspondence.  Thus, when testimonies and documents were gathered during the process of her beatification and canonization, the remarkable story of her intimate relationship with Jesus, hidden from even her closest collaborators, was discovered.

          In contrast to her ‘ordinariness,’ Mother Teresa’s confidences reveal previously unknown depths of holiness and may very well lead her to be ranked among the great mystics of the church.” (From the Preface of “Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light,” by Fr. Brian Kolodiejchuch, M.C., PhD, Doubleday, 2007)

 

Whether or not we agree with what the author has said and done, Mother Teresa’s letters are now available to anyone who wants to read them.  So let me come right to the heart of the matter as I quote from this one, written to Fr. Joseph Neuner in April of 1961.  And remember, this is long after the young twelve year old Albanian girl named Agnes Bojaxhiu sensed her call to become a missionary in 1928, and took her vows as a nun in 1931, and became Mother Teresa who started The Missionaries of Charity in 1948 in Calcutta where she and her sisters have ministered to the poorest of the poor.

 

Many years later, this is what she wrote to Fr. Neuner:

 

          “-Since 1949 or 50, this terrible sense of loss – this untold darkness – this loneliness, this continual longing for God – which gives me that pain deep down in my heart – darkness is such that I really do not see – neither with my mind nor with my reason – the place of God in my soul is blank… - I just long and long for God… -  Sometimes I hear my own heart cry out ‘My God’ and nothing else comes – the torture and pain I can’t explain.”  (Pages 1-2 from the Introduction)

 

The following year, 1962, she wrote again to Father Neuner:

 

          “If I ever become a saint – I will surely be one of ‘darkness.’  I will continually be absent from heaven – to light the light of those in darkness on earth.”  (ibid, Page 1)

 

This was, according to the author, “a kind of mission statement” for Mother Teresa’s life.  At the age of 12 she heard Jesus say “Come be my light,” and from that day on, she strove to be a light of God’s love in the lives of those who were struggling in the darkness.  For Mother Teresa, however, “the paradoxical and totally unexpected cost of her mission was that she herself would live in that ‘terrible darkness’ for many years to come.” (ibid, Page 1)

 

In fact, just before traveling to Oslo, Norway to receive the Nobel Peace Prize in December of 1979, where she, in all of her simplicity and humility, stood before that distinguished audience and spoke into the television cameras broadcasting her words to millions around the world, declaring that “It is not enough for us to say ‘I love God, but I do not love my neighbor,’ since dying on the cross, Christ had ‘made Himself the hungry one – the naked one – the homeless one,” thereby calling us to reach out to others in His holy name…Just twelve weeks before saying all of that and more in Oslo, Mother Teresa sent these words to another spiritual director, Rev. Michael Van der Peet:

 

          “Jesus has a very special love for you.  (But) as for me – the silence and the emptiness is so great – that I look and do not see, - listen, and do not hear.”  (From Time Magazine Article, September 3, 2007 by David Van Biema, Page 36).

 

So, my friends, how can we make any kind of sense out of this?  And what are we to do with it, with this secret now revealed about Mother Teresa, who cared for, loved and helped to heal all those suffering, dying people, and yet whose own heart seemed broken by the absence of the Holy One who had once spoken to her, but then remained silent for almost 50 years?

 

II

 

One thing is certain – there are no easy answers here, no glib religious clichés that can take away Mother Teresa’ struggle and pain, much less our own, as we look for light in the darkness, love in the midst of loneliness, hope in the valley of despair, and faith during those hard times when we cannot feel that God’s presence is there.

 

It happened to Helen Hayes, that grand old lady of the screen and stage whom I have told you about before.  Her daughter was stricken with polio and died far too young, and that actress felt the curtain of grief come down as she shut herself off from friends and from God.

 

In her book, “I Believe,” this is how she told the story:

 

          “I cut God out of my life and didn’t have the nerve to ask Him back in again.  Nevertheless, I went to my church in New York City and prayed there every morning, looking for a restoration of faith and a reunion with God… I recall vividly, one by one, the people I had seen there – the solemn laborers with tired looks, the old women with gnarled hands.  Life had knocked them around, but for a brief moment they were being refreshed by an ennobling experience.  It seemed as they prayed that their worn faces lighted up, and they became the very vessels of God.

          And suddenly, I realized that I was one of them.  In my need, I saw their need too, and felt an interdependence with them.  I experienced a flood of compassion for people, and have never since felt separated from the love of God.”  (From “This I Believe,” by Helen Hayes, Simon and Schuster)

 

The reason why I have told that story a number of times is that many of us can identify with Helen Hayes as she faced suffering in her life, and also because the story about being in a New York City church makes me think of you sitting here in this sanctuary, Sunday after Sunday, bringing to this sacred place your private sorrow and personal pain, lifting it all up to God in prayer.  Helen Hayes was healed, relieved of her grief and able once more to experience the presence of the Lord.  So it has been for many of us.  But Mother Teresa’s letters reveal that she did not feel the presence of Jesus, even though she went on working and helping to heal others in His name.

 

It happened to C.S. Lewis as well, who after the death of his beloved wife Joy in 1960, was plunged into a kind of living hell on earth.  Lewis wrote a book about that agonizing time in his life entitled “A Grief Observed,” and so forthright was he about his sense of God’s abandonment, that the book was originally published under the pseudonym of N.W. Clerk (See Forward by Madeleine L’Engle, Page 5).

 

Here’s why – just listen to the depth of C.S. Lewis’ cry for help:

 

          “…Where is God?  This is one of the most disquieting symptoms.  When you are happy, so happy that you have no sense of needing Him, so happy that you are tempted to feel His claims upon you as an interruption, if you remember yourself and turn to Him with gratitude and praise, you will be – or so it feels – welcomed with open arms.

          But go to Him when your need is desperate, when all other help is vain, and who do you find?  A door slammed in your face, and a sound of bolting…on the inside.  After that, silence…there are no lights in the windows.  It might be an empty house.  Was it ever inhabited?  It seems so once…What can this mean?  Why is He so present a commander in our time of prosperity and so very absent a help in time of trouble?”  (From “A Grief Observed,” by C.S. Lewis, Harper San Francisco, 1961, Pages 17-18).

 

Toward the end of this book, Lewis begins to emerge from the valley of the shadow and writes “I have gradually been coming to feel that the door is no longer shut and bolted.”

 

And he went on to write more about his restoration of faith until C.S. Lewis died in November of 1963, the same day as the assassination of President John F. Kennedy.

 

But for Mother Teresa, there did not seem to be that same kind of restoration of a sense of God’s presence in her life.  At the time of her death at the age of 87 on the 5th of September, ten years ago, Mother Teresa had endured what felt like God’s absence for a long, long time.

 

Time Magazine described it this way:

 

          “The absence seems to have started at almost precisely the time she began tending the poor and dying in Calcutta, and – except for a five-week break in 1959 – never abated.  Although perpetually cheery in public, the Teresa of the letters lived in a state of deep and abiding spiritual pain.”  (Time Magazine, September 3, 2007, Page 38)

 

Which is why some people now think and have said that Mother Teresa, “The Saint Of The Gutters,” the founding visionary leader of The Missionaries of Charity in the city of Calcutta…that Mother Teresa had lost her faith and kept it a secret throughout her life.

 

CONCLUSION

 

Well, what do you think?  Having read most of the letters in this book, “Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light,” as we conclude our sermon, let me tell you what I think.

 

Mother Teresa was not an atheist.  She believed in the reality of God and dedicated her life to Him.  So I think that differentiates her from the person described in James, Chapter 1, who doubted the very existence of God, “being double minded and unstable in every way,” and therefore was not able to “receive anything from the Lord.”  In other words, if you don’t accept that God lives, then you won’t expect God to give you anything.

 

Just the opposite was true for Mother Teresa.  She knew God was there, and she constantly asked and prayed that He would help her care for the poor, the sick, the suffering and the dying people with whom she shared everything the Lord gave to her.  But sadly and painfully, she did that without being able to feel His presence for most of her life’s journey.

 

Moreover, Mother Teresa loved Jesus and trusted in His grace, even though she could not always hear His voice or see His face.  Like John the Baptist, locked in the darkness of a prison cell, who sent his disciples to Jesus asking “Are you the One who is to come, or are we to wait for another?”, Mother Teresa longed to hear those same words Jesus sent back to John: “Go and tell him that the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised and the poor have good news brought to them” (Matthew 11:2-5). 

 

And that is where Mother Teresa found Jesus, as she touched those very same people in His name.  Perhaps that might even be described as her creed: “In as much as you have done it unto one of the least of these, you have done it unto me” (Matthew 25:40).

 

And finally, I think Mother Teresa’s faith can ultimately be described with the words which Jesus cried out on the cross:  “My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?” (Matthew 27:46).  Those words, originally written in the 22nd Psalm by King David, go on to say:

 

My God, I cry day by day, but You do not answer…yet You are holy…and in You, our ancestors trusted…to You they cried, and were saved…in You they trusted, and were not put to shame (Psalm 22:1-5).

 

You see, Mother Teresa realized that God had called her to be identified with the suffering of Jesus, and with the pain and sorrow of the people whom He came into this world to save.  So the cross that Albanian nun was willing to bear empowered her to live and love and labor in the midst of the darkness and despair of Calcutta.

 

Soren Kierkegaard once said that “Faith sees best in the darkness,” and that was the story of Mother Teresa’s life.  No one in our time has done more for the poor.  When she received the Nobel Peace Prize in 1979, the statistics of her ministry with The Missionaries of Charity were staggering: 960,000 patients cared for in her dispensaries, 47,000 lepers looked after in 54 clinics, 7,500 children educated in her schools, 3,400 destitute and dying people ministered to in her 23 hospices, 1,600 orphans brought up in her 20 homes.  (From an Associated Press news release, December 1979).  And all of those numbers, of course, have increased exponentially around the world over the past 28 years.

 

But what has impressed me more than statistics are some of the final words in this book, which actually were among the last words anyone ever heard Mother Teresa say before she died peacefully that night of September 5, 1997.  One of the sisters looked through the open door of her room and this is what she witnessed:

 

          “I saw Mother alone, facing…a picture of the Holy Face…and she was saying ‘Jesus, I have never refused you anything.’  I thought she was talking to someone, so I went in…and again heard the same words: ‘Jesus, I have never refused you anything.’” (From “Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light,” Page 331)

 

That was the promise Mother Teresa made in 1928 when Jesus called her to “come be my light.”  And that was the promise she kept all the days of her life, until she died.

 

I don’t know how long it will take for Mother Teresa to be officially made a saint.  But can you imagine the great celebration among all the saints in heaven when Mother Teresa arrived, as she and they heard the Lord Jesus Himself say “Well done, good and faithful servant.  Enter at last into the joy of my kingdom!”  And that is where she will be for all of eternity.

 

In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.  Amen.

 

 

 

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